Dear Bulimia, You fought hard but I WON

Thank you for finding this post and taking the time to read. My journey with bulimia has been long and very trying. I am very open about it and continue to share all my tools and tricks to stay healthy and moving forward. I talk about mindset a lot and am launching a new podcast to help even more. Sign up HERE to be notified on launch. Also, in the meantime, follow me on Instagram to read all about my daily journey with this lifelong commitment to recovery.

This past week I revealed the only skeleton I have ever kept in my closest.  I was recording a podcast with my amazing friends Abel from Fat Burning Man and Kaleigh from The Paleo Angel.  We were discussing Intermittent Fasting and body image issues at length due to some complications Kaleigh had experienced.  During the end of the podcast, for the first time, I revealed that I have struggled with bulimia for the past 12 years and have never told ANYONE. Shortly after sharing this on the podcast, I had the amazing pleasure of recording a very intimate podcast with one of the most compassionate and caring human beings I have ever met, Stefani Ruper from Paleo for Women.  In conversation, I had shared with Stefani my struggles and she wanted to talk to me about it.  I trust her and felt comfortable to share, so we dedicated an entire podcast to my issues, as well as body image issues in men and women and within certain communities like Crossfit.  If you would like to listen you can find that HERE.


For my amazing friends and family that have always been there for me, please understand that the reasons you did not know had nothing to do with you.  I love and cherish every one of you with my entire being. This was something I struggled with alone, and therefore wanted to attempt to remedy alone.  I ask that you please support me and respect my decisions, and support me from this moment forward on spreading a positive message and using my experience to help others get healthy and love themselves. Whether it is healing bulimia or just smiling more.

There are many things about my past that I think contributed to what lead me to this struggle. I am not going to look for a sob story, but I was not the most popular kid growing up. The first time I ever purged was sophomore year of high school.  It is one of the clearest memories of my life. I managed to muster the courage to ask someone to a formal dance.  That was huge for me.  I went to the store to get fitted for my suit, but I was timid and just going through the motions.  The immature @$$hole helping me was having trouble finding pants to fit me that matched the jacket size.  He was making it loudly obvious that I was an inconvenience and my weight was an issue.  It was the longest hour of my life. I had to try on multiple pairs of pants and with every pair, came a comment to go with it. I remember acting like nothing had happened the whole time driving home.  This was the most dangerous part. This is where the slippery slope started. I cried for HOURS that night when I got home.

I hated myself!

I hated my family life!

I hated everything about my existence!

I snuck downstairs to the bathroom at around midnight and for the first time ever, I forced myself to purge.  I had not even eaten dinner that night because I was so upset, so there was nothing to get rid of. Even so, I felt like it made me skinnier because I was in control and it would work.

As anyone with this disorder (builmia) might tell you (that I have personally known), it’s a rollercoaster.  I had weeks, sometimes  MONTHS of consistently purging and also then years where I was able to fight the urges.

Shame was my motivating force.

At the height of it, during 2005, I exhibited symptoms of anorexia as well as bulimia for 6 straight months.  I had just had my final surgery out of 5 on my legs, and I was at my heaviest weight, around 250lbs. This was the dark hour for me. For six months, I was alone in my barracks room. Sometimes 2-3 weeks without seeing anyone. I would sit in my wheelchair and stare at myself in the mirror.

I would PUNCH MYSELF in the stomach while crying because I was so depressed!


I would go three days without eating, and then eat an entire pizza and purge it up 10 minutes later.  To be honest, I am surprised I am still alive for how low my depression was.  I really saw no light anywhere.


One of the biggest episode triggers I dealt with was the loss of ability to participate in anything fitness related. I WAS SO CONCERNED WITH BODY IMAGE, I would violently spin out of control.  The other triggers were always social events, big ones.  Every time I had to participate in anything that required me to wear a dress uniform, or suit, I would dread going to a tailor. I had flashbacks of that day of my sophomore year so I avoided it the most I could. There were also the simple things like my negative body image when I was in the gym or at the beach. Even being tickled caused negative thoughts and a downward spiral.

One of the hardest things for me to cope with was being a male and experiencing this!


It is so rarely talked about and mostly avoided to maintain some macho complex.  Well guess what, F$#K THAT! I am a man, I HAD body issues, I WAS bulimic, I HAVE emotions and I am going to SHARE them with the world. I want to share this with you in the hopes that this may reach even just one person. I’ll know then that I did my job.

I spent so many years of my life feeling inadequate. Throughout my life I believed the only way people would value me was if I gave every ounce of myself.  Problem was, I would often come across as an egotistical asshole while I tried too hard to hide my secret.  I was misjudged because I was too busy crying on the inside to be myself and ask for help.

Those days are behind me!!!


This part is the hardest for me, mainly because I know I am past these demons but it is very fresh for me.  The last time that I forced myself to purge was in March of this year (2012). I was competing in the Crossfit Opens and I broke my right hand. Once I was injured and unable to perform at the standards I had created for myself, it forced me to spiral back down the dark path. I was also getting ready to head to PaleoFx and meet all of my Paleo idols for the first time. I started to doubt myself and I was convinced I would be judged solely on my physical appearance.  Once that ball started rolling, it just didn’t stop.

Once I was there though, I met so many amazing people who just loved me and I was so supported.  Strangers, online friends, and friends I already had, were gracious and encouraging on all I was working on and trying to do. Not once, did anyone ever say anything to me about the way I looked.  Not once did any of them ask about my crossfit abilities.  It forced some self-reflection and I realized that if all of these people I didn’t even know treated me with dignity and respect, why would the people closest to me ever do that?  They must not care either how many pull-ups I can do, or how fast I can run a mile, or whether I have a 2 pack, 4 pack, 6 pack or Keg.

They are going to love me and support me.


Even though I reflected, and I mentally had beaten my demons, I was still not ready to tell anyone.  I had the mindset that because it was always only my battle, that since I conquered it, no one else needed to know.  Until one night this past summer, I was attending the Ancestral Health Symposium. I did not have any anxiety leading up to or during the event for any fears of judgments from others (this was huge for me). I ventured out to a bar in downtown Boston with my friend Abel and my new friend Stefani (remember these two from earlier? See a connection yet?). It was 1 am, and the three of us were socializing about websites, goals, dreams, drive, and visions. After a few NorCal margaritas, Abel asked me why I push so hard and do what I do for others. In response he got a 12-year synopsis of my entire history. He showed so much compassion and love for someone he had barely known, it finally clicked with me that I was almost ready to share this part of my story.  I will thank Abel in a later post, but for your reference, he is now my Best friend, business partner, and the man who asked the right question to save my life.

Thank you Abel!!!!!!


Here are my thoughts on what I have learned through this journey. I hope that they may help you or someone you know in any way:

  • Write “it” down. Admit it to yourself. Putting it on paper makes it real.
  • Tell someone. Accountability is something some of us struggle with and telling a friend or family what your plans are will help keep you on track. It may seem scary, the best approach is: “I am bulimic!”
  • DON’T be afraid to admit your struggles and tell someone you need help
  • Being proud should be saved for another time. Your true friends and family are going to love you for you and support you regardless
  • LOVE YOURSELF. When you wake up in the morning every day, think of 3 positive things that you love about yourself and write them on something. Put them on a post it and put it on your mirror. This may sound cheesy, but that sets the tone of your entire day. Positive thinking breeds positive results.
  • Don’t sweat the small stuff. The small stuff were my tipping factors until I learned that even if my car breaks down, or I get a flat tire, or I have a bad day at work, that I am still alive and able to influence this world in a positive manner. Always be the optimist in every situation. There truly are two sides to every story and I want you to be the positive side.

My name is George Bryant. 

I suffered with Bulimia and body image issues for 12 years!!


I am a man and there is no shame in admitting I needed help!!


Here is my promise: I beat this and will remain strong and love myself from this point on.  I will lead by example and do my best to guide others on the same!!


I can not give you any medical advice on how to address your bulimia or other problems legally.  This post describes what I learned and how I overcame it.  If you or someone you know needs help, check out these resources below:

 **If you chose not to leave a comment, but you would still like to talk to me, You can email me us at and I promise I will read it**

There are a lot of people struggling with issues, some will open up and some are not ready, but reading this could benefit them all.  Please share and let’s make a difference!!


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  1. Hi George,

    I just wanted to say thank you for releasing your fear surrounding this issue and for having the courage to share all you have experienced with us. What an incredible journey. As a woman who has suffered anorexia tendancies, body dysmorphia and a deep seeded hate for myself in the past, I have often wondered about this subject surrounding men. Here in Australia, there doesn’t seem to be a lot of support for men in this arena and I am interested to learn more about your experiences as I step into the world as a health and life coach. Fabulous website you have here and am looking forward to making your Apple muffin in a mug :).
    Have a wonderful day.
    Kindest regards


  2. Wow! What a story. What I can’t help but think of after reading that is that you wouldn’t be where you are today without that difficult struggle in your life. Thankfully, you had folks surround you and help you through it. They sound awesome. I struggled with that as a teenager, so I can completely relate to your journey. Be strong, press on and please don’t stop making & sharing your awesome recipes. They help to keep me on track with my health (well, not just me…. other folks too I guess). Thank you for your story and your intelligence in this arena.

  3. Hi George,

    Thank you so much for sharing your story – I have been bulimic for 10 years and the thing is I am an extremely happy and social person on the whole. I am generally always happy with life and enjoy hanging out with my friends but for me, I am always eating well and healthy throughout the day but the second the afternoon hits something happens and I lose control and binge eat and eat whatever I want.

    I workout regularly, about 5-6 times a week doing fun cardio and strength training classes that I truly enjoy, I am of healthy weight and have great body muscle mass (about 20% body fat) which is right where I want to be for a female in their early 20s. My family is aware of this, and I tell them all the time that I want them to ask me about how I am doing about my bulimia because I want them to ask them so I can tell them that I still struggle and purge 4x a week but they just don’t want to ask me/stay consistent with it. I am scared to tell my friends because I really just don’t think they have any idea that I am struggling with this. I feel like I have a great understanding of myself and am confident in who I am, but I feel like my trigger for me is that I am such a perfectionist when it comes to eating, the second I take a bite of something unhealthy, the switch turns on, and I just end up binge eating because to me the damage has already been done. It is interesting because when I am on vacation with my friends, I never binge and can eat healthy and am happy, but it is always when I am by myself.

    I just feel like I did someone to talk to/make me accountable but I don’t know where to go from here to overcome this, because I really do want to but I just don’t know how.

  4. It is incredibly brave for you to share your story! Wow. You are such an inspiration!

    I struggled with weight since 4th grade! As an adult,I decided when I saw 280 on the scale,to do something about it! I lost 80 lbs! Kept it off over 15 yrs & ‘found’ 20 of it back lol..I recently lost 17 lbs! I truly enjoyed meeting you today on Facebook live! You’re very knowledgeable, funny & passionate! It’s infectious! Thanks for welcoming me today. Being there for nearly 3 hours truly made my day!!

    Joey Jennings
    Facebook & NEW Tribe member!

  5. I’ve been quiet lately, crazy busy. But I’m still here. You know I stand with you. Keep speaking out and sharing your story. It’s important and valuable.

    (I still think you should write a book… in your free time, of course. ;-) )

  6. Hey, I bet it was really hard to open up about this. As just another one of millions on the internet, I’m touched to have come across this post and, therefore, to have been a witness to you and your process. I’m so sorry you didn’t have the support you needed to begin with, and I’m so glad you found it. I’m also so glad that you felt comfortable sharing your story — I can only imagine young men finding your post and finding out that they’re not alone.

    Thank you!

  7. Thank you for your story! I was bulimic too for 20 years. Since I found paleo I was the first time free and get control back to my eating pattern. I spent hours on psychologic therapie and I think now that for me it was a form of food allergic. And when you loose every day your fight with food you get psychologic problems too. Thank you for sharing your story and thank you for your webside and app. Best wishes from germany!

  8. Wow, this is amazing. As a recovered orthorexic/anorexic who went primal it’s nice to hear someone who really gets it. You’re awesome.

  9. Hey George,

    I have been following you for awhile now but never knew your story. I personally have never dealt with the issue of being bulimic but I do find myself fighting with body image issues. It’s something that I go back and forth with and ride the wave of eating healthy for a week or two and then once a weekend arrives I fly off the wagon and let that snowball for a week. After reading this page, I’m learning that I have so much I can improve upon and how I need to be more open with myself and those closest around me. I could go on and on forever but I want to thank you for all that you do and I hope you continue to do what you do!

    Chad from Vermont

  10. Thank you for sharing your story with us George. I have been suffering from bulimia for 16 years now. I can’t stop. I am amazed how I am still alive. I purge everyday, 5 to 10 times a day. I am constantly hungry. I am happy on the outside. Everyone thinks that I am just a normal thin beautiful lady. But I get shivers and chest pains all the time. My family doesn’t think there is anything wrong with me. I feel helpless like I’m a huge fuck up. And the people who know that I suffer from this disease have done nothing to support me. I feel unloved. All do is try to please others. try to make everyone happy. but I am so sad. All I want to do is get better. I just don’t want to feel hungry and weak anymore. I want to live a long life and do good to my society. How do I start?

    1. Maybe people that do know are supporting you and you can’t see it or feel it because you are so deep in your addiction. Your mind will fight your recovery every step of the way because it’s your comfort zone. You have to get uncomfortable and kick the disease’s ass before it takes your life.

      1. Admit/own your disease. Take its power away by just talking about it and giving it no energy
      2. Find someone to hold you accountable. A friend, family member, go to a meeting
      3. HOLD YOURSELF ACCOUNTABLE. Every Time you want to purge, choose something else. You have to replace those moments in your life with better ones and ONLY YOU can make it better!

      Please ask for help and keep working

  11. Thank you for sharing this, Ive been struggling with bulimia for a long time and reading it from someone who is spreading concousness and a positive lifestyle is very inspiring.

  12. I stumbled onto your page because my friend who is a trainer posted one of your recipes and then I read this. As someone who has struggled with addiction and eventually recovery for many years, I find your message so beautiful, heartfelt and relevant. For me it wasn’t so much just stopping my addiction (not that it was easy) but then actually facing and dealing with the person I saw in the mirror and all of the issues beneath, was by far the hardest challenge I have ever met. Someone once told me “You are a warrior, who has been through battles and you walk with a limp. That means people will trust you.” I pass this along to you because you are courageous and a fantastic inspiration.

    Thank you.

  13. I just wanted to thank you for sharing something so personal. Love is hard, loving yourself? Even harder. Glad you found that path. Best wishes on your journey ahead, keep up the great work. You’re an inspiration! #hugsandbacon

  14. Thank you so much for this. I could not read through completely without becoming emotional but I am so grateful. You can never know how much it means to be able to read your story and feel less alone, somewhat understood even if by someone I don’t know. I have struggled with disordered eating habits, specifically binge eating which spurred from binge drinking 8 years ago. I am fighting this fight and I’m winning some and losing some but it is a lonely one because I find this extremely embarrassing. My career is in fitness! I am in a male body and I was never overweight in fact always pretty thin so I felt I had no right to have body image issues. I believe it is hard for people to understand that no one wants to be noted for an extreme build even if it is slender, that body image issues take many forms. People don’t usually intent to be mean when they say things like “geez your skinny” because they can’t know I was looking in the mirror and seeing a gaunt, frail, or sickly frame. I have had some malicious types say these things but I understand they don’t matter because those intentions would be the same regardless of my body. I have much hope because I recognize the disorder in the way I had been living. Your words have helped immensely by making me feel less like a freak, less like I need to suck it up and ok to feel something about it. I will never stop fighting for health and wellness. Peace to you <3

      1. You are so brave. And strong. I know your family is blessed by everything that makes you who you are. May God continue to bless you. I’m not bulimic, just AIP and struggling a bit. Your truth and honesty makes my reality look less overwhelming, more manageable. You’re a Godsend. Thank you for all you’ve accomplished and shared with us.

  15. Being a man who has struggled with bulimia for several years, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story. I am working on recovery and making progress and it is comforting to know other men suffer with this as well

  16. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It gives me hope. I’d like to say I’ve overcome my battles with bulimia, and in some ways I have as I no longer feel the need to purge and haven’t for years, but I have yet to be able to get past my battle with food. My battle to get healthy has become my identity and I’m realising that my fear of giving up how others relate to me and how I see myself is preventing me from moving forward. So strange it is to be afraid of a better healthier life.

  17. Thank you for bearing your soul! Can you imagine if everyone shared the demons they face? I meet so many people who I think, “Wow, they really have it together. They are successful and so perfect.” Then, after knowing them for a while, and they open up to me, I find that they have the same demons and fears of inadequacy that I feel. Many people put up a good act, but really it’s just a survival strategy. Thank you for being brave enough to put yourself out there. We all struggle with something, I truly believe that! I try to remind myself every day not to judge, others or myself, too harshly. Love yourself, love others!!

      1. Your story really touched me. You are courageous, and compassionate to share yourself and your story so generously.
        Transparency empowers you to help others while you forge ahead. Secrets are destructive forces in our lives. They take so much energy to maintain and they alienate us from the rest of the world as we work to hide it from the people who care about us the most. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. You are a truly heroic human.

  18. You are one of my top three bloggers I follow, and this was quite the eye-opener for me. I’ve had serious body issues ever since high school. I was always the athletic one in my group, and you’d think that would mean I was the thinnest, but no. All my friends were very slender, but not really in the same physical shape as me. However, because that number on the scale read 130 and theirs was 95-105 I felt like the fat friend. I look back at pictures now and can see that there was absolutely nothing wrong with me. It’s still something I struggle with. When I can stick to a fairly consistent Paleo diet, I feel better and the weight drops off. I don’t feel guilty about eating.

    I’m so glad you opened up and shared this! It really puts things into perspective that none of us are perfect and without our own skeletons in the closet. I wish you the best in everything you do, George!

  19. Thank you SO much for posting this. You are such an inspiration and proof that EDs are not limited to a niche group, subculture, or stereotype. I felt like I was reading my own story… I very distinctly remember my first time purging (I was in the 6th grade) and have since struggled with it on and off. Every day is a fight to stay healthy, but as time passes it only gets easier and I get stronger. I believe that I, too, have won.

    Thank you again for sharing your story and being a guide for others seeking a strong, healthy, and happy life. You’re helping show others that there are HEALTHY ways to have your cake and eat it too!! :)

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